get all poems workin, get semantic search workin, get thoughts section working

src/lib/components/SearchResults.svelte

@@ -1,6 +1,7 @@
 <script lang="ts">
 	import { searchResults } from '$lib/store';
 	import type { SearchResult } from '$lib/utils/search';
+	import { onMount } from 'svelte';
 
 	let results: SearchResult[] = [];
 
@@ -15,6 +16,10 @@
 			.map((word) => word.charAt(0).toUpperCase() + word.slice(1))
 			.join(' ');
 	}
+
+	onMount(() => {
+		searchResults.set([]);
+	});
 </script>
 
 {#if results.length > 0}
@@ -26,8 +31,8 @@
 			{#each results as result}
 				<li class="py-4">
 					<h3 class="pb-1">
-						<a class="link" href="/poetry/{result.poem.id}">{slugToTitle(result.poem.id)}</a>
+						<a class="link" href={`/poetry/${result.poem.id}`}>{slugToTitle(result.poem.id)}</a>
-						<p class="text-sm">(Relevance: {(result.similarity * 100).toFixed(3)})%</p>
+						<p class="text-sm">(Relevance: {(result.similarity * 100).toFixed(3)}%)</p>
 					</h3>
 				</li>
 			{/each}

src/lib/utils/PoetryLayout.svelte

@@ -1,5 +1,4 @@
 <script context="module">
-	import { onMount } from 'svelte';
 	import Headline from './poetry/h1.svelte';
 	import p from './poetry/p.svelte';
 	export { Headline as h1, p };

src/lib/utils/ThoughtsLayout.svelte

@@ -0,0 +1,18 @@
+<script context="module">
+	import Headline from './thoughts/h1.svelte';
+	import p from './thoughts/p.svelte';
+	export { Headline as h1, p };
+</script>
+
+<script lang="ts">
+	export let title;
+	export let date;
+	export let categories;
+	export let tags;
+	export let year;
+	export let layout;
+</script>
+
+<main>
+	<slot />
+</main>

src/lib/utils/index.ts

@@ -3,7 +3,7 @@ export interface Metadata {
 	date: string;
 	content: string;
 	categories?: string[];
-	section?: SectionKey;
+	draft?: boolean;
 }
 
 export interface Section {
@@ -41,7 +41,7 @@ export const fetchMarkdownPosts = async (
 	section: SectionKey,
 	limit: number,
 	offset: number
-): Promise<{posts: Post[], total: number}> => {
+): Promise<{ posts: Post[]; total: number }> => {
 	let posts: Record<string, () => Promise<unknown>>;
 	switch (section) {
 		case 'poetry':
@@ -51,32 +51,50 @@ export const fetchMarkdownPosts = async (
 			posts = import.meta.glob('/src/routes/(app)/projects/posts/*.md');
 			break;
 		case 'thoughts':
-				posts = import.meta.glob('/src/routes/(app)/thoughts/posts/*.md');
+			posts = import.meta.glob('/src/posts/thoughts/*.md');
+			console.log(posts);
 			break;
 		default:
 			throw new Error('Could not find this section');
 	}
 	const iterablePostFiles = Object.entries(posts);
 
+	const postsWithErrors: string[] = [];
+
 	const allPosts = await Promise.all(
 		iterablePostFiles.map(async ([path, resolver]) => {
+			try {
 				const data = await resolver();
 				if (isData(data)) {
+					if (data.metadata.draft) {
+						return undefined;
+					}
 					const { metadata } = data;
 					const postPath = path.slice(11, -3);
 					return {
-					meta: { ...metadata, section: section },
+						meta: { ...metadata },
 						path: postPath
 					};
 				} else {
-				throw new Error('Could not properly parse this post');
+					console.error('Could not properly parse this post');
+					postsWithErrors.push(path);
+				}
+			} catch (error) {
+				console.error(`Error parsing post at ${path}: ${error}`);
+				postsWithErrors.push(path);
 			}
 		})
 	);
 
-	const sortedPosts = allPosts.sort((a, b) => new Date(a.meta.date).getTime() - new Date(b.meta.date).getTime() );
+	console.log('Files that could not be properly parsed:', postsWithErrors);
+
+	const sortedPosts: Post[] = allPosts
+		.filter((post): post is Post => post !== undefined)
+		.sort(
+			(b, a) => new Date(a?.meta.date || '').getTime() - new Date(b?.meta.date || '').getTime()
+		);
 
 	const paginatedPosts = sortedPosts.slice(offset, offset + limit);
 
-	return {posts: paginatedPosts, total: allPosts.length};
+	return { posts: paginatedPosts, total: allPosts.length };
 };

src/lib/utils/thoughts/h1.svelte

@@ -0,0 +1,3 @@
+<h1 class="poetry-headline">
+  <slot></slot>
+</h1>

src/lib/utils/thoughts/p.svelte

@@ -0,0 +1,3 @@
+<p class="whitespace-pre-wrap">
+	<slot></slot>
+</p>

src/posts/poetry/afternoon.md

@@ -0,0 +1,14 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2014-01-10 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Humor
+title: Afternoon
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+I spent three quarters
+On a whole cookie
+To hear its half-baked
+Two cents.

src/posts/poetry/asphyxiate.md

@@ -0,0 +1,27 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2018-03-10 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Friendship
+  - Toxic
+title: Asphyxiate
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+I stopped myself
+To take a breather,
+
+But I took it far too late.
+
+My reluctant lungs
+Could hardly handle
+
+The second-hand sadness
+Yours create.
+
+Each blessing that falls
+Into your hand
+
+Soon meets its match
+And asphyxiates.

src/posts/poetry/atmospheres.md

@@ -0,0 +1,40 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-12-11 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Instrospective
+title: Atmospheres
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Your soul walks the plank
+Once your journey begins.
+It first could only sink,
+But soon learned to swim.
+
+You picked up the pace
+At the sight of life's fins,
+Headlong and headstrong
+Until your head spins.
+
+Your childhood caught up
+And took you back under
+
+To remind you
+Of the depths
+Your soul sunk
+While you were younger.
+
+The atmosphere was heavy already,
+But now the pressure's compounded.
+
+The soul remembers
+Its early cries for help
+And cries again
+To find its fears unfounded.
+
+We need others
+To lift us
+Once our siren
+Has sounded.

src/posts/poetry/bad-behavior.md

@@ -0,0 +1,48 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2017-08-10 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Nostalgia
+  - Doubt
+  - Habits
+  - Smoking
+  - Chattanooga
+title: Bad Behavior
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Do you happen to have
+A cigarette I could bum?
+Just to hold in my hand
+To help reminisce some
+
+To bring me back to a time
+When I had it all together
+And the worst of my worries
+Was exploring Minecraft's Nether.
+
+In fact, could I please
+Borrow your lighter as well?
+I won't actually smoke it;
+I promise to not inhale.
+
+Just the act of smoking
+Puts my mind at ease
+And places it in Bear Creek
+Enjoying the summer's breeze.
+
+But I've come this far already,
+So I think I'll take just a puff
+With one good hit of nicotine
+I'm sure I'll find to be enough.
+
+I'll savor its flavor
+Of late-night party favors
+And quick, justified breaks
+Between writing papers.
+
+And just like back then,
+It seems I still need a Savior
+And a few more cigarettes
+Before I break this bad behavior.

src/posts/poetry/booming-voice.md

@@ -0,0 +1,25 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2012-01-11 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Christianity
+  - Creation
+title: Booming Voice
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Silent explosions amidst the stars.
+Booming voices that created Mars.
+Yet Earth only his finger is placed
+And filled it with creatures the devil faced.
+
+All of creation has now withered
+Thanks to the one who now slithers.
+But a complex plan has been made,
+And ages later death is slayed.
+
+God is never seen yet is all-seeing
+Of all the actions of human beings.
+His guiding voice amidst speeding cars
+Now leads our souls beyond the stars.

src/posts/poetry/catch-up.md

@@ -0,0 +1,33 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-01-09 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Metaphor
+  - Realtalk
+  - Wisdom
+title: Catch Up
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+To your disbelief,
+This moment passed.
+You chased it down,
+But it runs too fast.
+
+It's one step ahead
+In the wrong direction
+Until you're lost
+In imperfection.
+
+==
+
+To your relief,
+This moment passed.
+But you couldn't run
+From its aftermath.
+
+You sought out shelter
+But had to keep moving
+After planting the flowers
+You'd never see blooming.

src/posts/poetry/celestial-stare.md

@@ -0,0 +1,19 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2015-01-20 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Christianity
+title: Celestial Stare
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+God and I locked eyes,
+But it's hard to look into the face of whom you fear.
+So instead, I gazed at the throne beneath Him;
+The ulterior motive for my wicked heart to draw near.
+
+God himself broke the stare as well,
+For it's hard to look into the face of a disappointing son.
+So instead, he gazed at Jesus within me
+Who's changing my heart 'til we hold staring contests for fun.

src/posts/poetry/closets.md

@@ -0,0 +1,20 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2015-02-20 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Night
+  - Secrets
+title: Closets
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Have you a fear of the dark
+As I have of the light?
+I'm afraid of what tomorrow
+Will reveal of tonight.
+
+A new skeleton is forged,
+Tucked away from your sight.
+But I'm running out of doors
+That I may keep locked tight.

src/posts/poetry/congenealogy.md

@@ -0,0 +1,21 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2016-02-15 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Christianity
+  - Faith
+  - Conviction
+title: Congenealogy
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+I can tell by your withering leaves
+And dwindling fruits,
+Your outstretched branch
+Has lost touch with its roots.
+
+You have overextended
+To give wind its due chase,
+But the rush that you seek
+Will destroy you posthaste.

src/posts/poetry/contingency.md

@@ -0,0 +1,37 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2021-03-16 08:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Christian
+title: Contingency
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Told at a young age
+That you're totally
+Depraved,
+
+Yet still a nominee
+To receive
+Eternity.
+
+O, hallelujah,
+You hypochondriac.
+
+O, hippocampus,
+Remember what you lack.
+
+Told at a young age
+You'll be called up
+On stage.
+
+If you don't like your task,
+Just ask that this cup
+Might pass.
+
+O, Adonai,
+Save the spotlight for me.
+
+On you, we rely
+To believe we're worthy.

src/posts/poetry/daydreaming-thomas.md

@@ -0,0 +1,47 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2015-04-15 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Relationships
+  - Love
+  - Consciousness
+title: Daydreaming Thomas
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+I sort of spaced out
+Into an ethereal dream
+
+While she fell back
+Into her usual routine
+
+Of noticing
+Amidst the material
+
+That
+
+Which my eyes have never seen.
+
+She ponders for a bit in confusion
+The possible reasons for my doubt,
+But it's the subject of possibility
+The inexplicable mind can't figure out
+
+As I soar above the tops of buildings
+And dive into the Atlantic ocean
+With uncanny buoyancy I believed
+As just another preconceived notion
+
+Until I cast that fact
+Into the back
+Of the recycle bin
+
+After I break
+The REM cycle
+And consciousness
+clocks back in.
+
+And still you ask
+Why I've yet
+To fall in love again?

src/posts/poetry/despondent.md

@@ -0,0 +1,18 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2017-05-10 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Doubt
+  - Atrophy
+title: Despondent
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+The holy spirit
+Filled your lungs
+At one point.
+
+Now it’s either
+American
+Or rolled joints.

src/posts/poetry/down-like-me.md

@@ -0,0 +1,26 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-07-24 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Religion
+title: Down
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+I wish that you were down like me.
+
+To both clown around
+And fall apart at the seams.
+
+To take life by the horns
+As you shout "C'est la vie!"
+
+To melt in its fire
+Then break the mold as you leave.
+
+To cut through the crap
+To see if the world bleeds
+
+And once we find it doesn't,
+Figure out how it still stings.

src/posts/poetry/dreams-spill.md

@@ -0,0 +1,16 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2011-01-10 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Dreams
+  - Advice
+title: Dreams Spill
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+When you wake up,
+Be sure to lay still
+Lest your dreams spill
+Out like a cup
+From a drink offering.

src/posts/poetry/elephants.md

@@ -0,0 +1,25 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2014-09-10 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Realtalk
+  - Silence
+title: Elephants
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Silence speaks louder than words
+At a decibel too loud to be heard
+As an abrupt disruption of nothin'
+For our conversation consumption.
+
+Its presence is chilling
+And instant buzz-killing
+Yet still we act
+As if it's not there.
+
+Our tongues are untied
+As the silence subsides
+Yet still its message
+Hangs heavy in the air.

src/posts/poetry/enmity-amnesiac.md

@@ -0,0 +1,34 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-07-15 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Introspective
+title: Enmity Amnesiac
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Don't worry!
+I've got your back.
+I'm an enmity
+Amnesiac.
+
+Each stab of yours
+Only lowers my standards;
+You can't trust a kid
+To mind their manners.
+
+Until I found my standards
+Couldn't go any lower.
+The thermometer couldn't measure
+The sheer coldness of your shoulder.
+
+Your rain turns into sleet
+Each time you protest my parade
+By singing along to hate speech
+And calling it a serenade.
+
+You'll still find in me forgiveness;
+You'll only lack a lot of trust.
+I believe in endless second chances
+To break the chains of the unjust.

src/posts/poetry/fear-and-trembling.md

@@ -0,0 +1,46 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-07-01 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Christianity
+title: Fear And Trembling
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Where did you go?
+
+I was told to follow, and so I followed,
+But now it seems that I'm all alone.
+
+Our footsteps have been washed away.
+Leaving me without proof, or a path back home.
+
+I looked away for just one moment,
+Which is all it took for you to disappear.
+
+Were you just an imaginary friend
+Whom I outgrew over the years?
+
+You had my back.
+
+But maybe you were only
+Fulfilling a maintenance request.
+
+Because a wall was built.
+
+It does its job, and you've done yours,
+So now the carpenter has left.
+
+Are you a social psychosis
+Which we invent
+In our times of need?
+
+A necessary neurosis
+In order to cope with
+The imperfect lives we lead?
+
+Even now,
+While I shiver as the air thins and grows colder,
+I swear,
+I can feel your hand now resting on my shoulder.

src/posts/poetry/fool-yourself.md

@@ -0,0 +1,21 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-01-15 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Lies
+  - Wisdom
+  - Introspective
+title: Fool Yourself
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+You knew that they were joking,
+But over time, the lies took root.
+It's a belief you couldn't shake
+Without their "fate" becoming Truth.
+
+You are as they say,
+And they've said quite a lot.
+The more you fight against it,
+The more that must be fought.

src/posts/poetry/foolish-heart.md

@@ -0,0 +1,13 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2015-04-28 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Relationships
+  - Love
+  - Humor
+title: Foolish Heart
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+How redundant.

src/posts/poetry/fraudulent-charges.md

@@ -0,0 +1,35 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-04-29 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Introspective
+title: Fraudulent Charges
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+His fear of the unforeseen arose,
+Which he thought t'was vanquished long ago.
+Alas,
+He found his faith in illusion:
+A financial foundation
+To cope with confusion.
+
+Words and the wind
+Could now freely hold sway
+With the worst of his worries
+The most willing to stay:
+
+"Worthless are you,
+Workaholic Anonymous!
+Heartless are you
+To become autonomous!"
+
+They raged until
+He raised himself
+Back up from the ground.
+
+"I hear you, wind.
+I hear you, words."
+Until he heard
+Only sound.

src/posts/poetry/get-a-grip.md

@@ -0,0 +1,22 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-01-21 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Introspective
+  - Realtalk
+  - Wisdom
+  - Worry
+title: Get A Grip
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+The future doesn't need me yet,
+yet,
+Yet I wish I was there now,
+now,
+Now the past will not forget,
+get,
+Get a grip if you know how,
+How,
+How?

src/posts/poetry/good-lord-good-friday.md

@@ -0,0 +1,19 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-04-19 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Christian
+title: Good Lord, Good Friday
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+The priests cried, "Prophesy!"
+After Jesus confessed his plan.
+"Who gave this man the right
+To sit at God’s right hand?"
+
+The crowd cried, "Crucify!"
+After Pilate met the King of Jews.
+"What has this man done
+To deserve such abuse?"

src/posts/poetry/haiku--12.md

@@ -0,0 +1,14 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2016-02-25 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Haiku
+  - Terror
+title: Haiku 12
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+It still trickles down
+Long after the winds swept through.
+Tears outlive terror.

src/posts/poetry/haiku--13.md

@@ -0,0 +1,14 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2017-06-10 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Wisdom
+  - Haiku
+title: Haiku 13
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+When you tell a lie,
+You tell the truth about you
+And your character.

src/posts/poetry/haiku--14.md

@@ -0,0 +1,14 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2018-02-05 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Walking
+  - Haiku
+title: Haiku 14
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+He walks a long ways.
+He would have ran, but running
+Is conspicuous.

src/posts/poetry/haiku--3.md

@@ -0,0 +1,14 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2012-02-22 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Haiku
+  - Wind
+title: Haiku 3
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+We're in a hurry.
+Now by watching us humans,
+The cold wind is too.

src/posts/poetry/haiku--4.md

@@ -0,0 +1,14 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2013-03-25 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Haiku
+  - Humor
+title: Haiku 4
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+I wish I could draw.
+Picture's worth a thousand words;
+This has just fourteen.

src/posts/poetry/haiku--7.md

@@ -0,0 +1,14 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2014-09-26 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Haiku
+  - Silence
+title: Haiku 7
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+You may interchange
+My middle name with either
+Silence or solace

src/posts/poetry/haiku--8.md

@@ -0,0 +1,16 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2014-09-26 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Haiku
+  - Humor
+  - Grounds
+  - Covenant
+title: Haiku 8
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+It is all folly!
+The grass withers, flowers fade,
+But the weeds still grow.

src/posts/poetry/homie.md

@@ -0,0 +1,51 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2015-05-15 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Relationships
+  - Love
+  - Friendship
+  - Covenant
+  - Nostalgia
+title: Homie
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+After we had passed around our time
+Like a handout from a middle school teacher
+Which left us as curiously disinterested
+As the typical middle school kid-creature,
+
+I had begun to realize we all had fun
+While I analyzed the past
+That I hold beneath my beanie.
+
+With the help of Aladdin's nameless genie,
+Tupac, and the also-immortal Houdini,
+I relived the photos we claim
+Frame us as fresh as a French Martini.
+
+And if you don't believe me,
+Well, I'd be quite surprised,
+
+Considering the retina-rays,
+Which flashed such a look
+From behind your eyes
+
+To broadcast the current thought
+That's now crossing your mind
+Which you'd otherwise only tell
+To your roommate, pet, and/or the Lord divine.
+
+You remember the fun we had, too.
+
+Well, besides the homework, and exams,
+And the whole "Hell freezing over"
+Which couldn't stop our professor's plans
+
+To take down our GPA's
+And No-School snow days.
+
+Comradery through common enemy.
+Tomfoolery as tedium's remedy.

src/posts/poetry/how-to-learn.md

@@ -0,0 +1,30 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2014-11-10 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Realtalk
+  - Advice
+title: How To Learn
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Knowledge is a splatter of color
+Across the canvas of your brain
+To gradually form a masterpiece
+With every splatter you gain.
+
+But these splats are not simply skills and facts,
+Else you're left with but reds and blues.
+For hidden within every facet of life,
+Will you find colors of every shade and hue.
+
+But an expansive canvas is required
+If you're to create a work of art.
+For only to those with a humble mind
+Will life have knowledge to impart.
+
+Look at matters from a new perspective,
+See the colors others have to show.
+Close up not your mind to wisdom;
+It's hard to learn if you think you know.

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2015-05-25 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Advice
+title: How To Tell A Good Joke
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+If you promise not to tell, I have heard a good rumor:
+Wisdom walks hand in hand with good humor.
+
+If you're sworn to secrecy, then let it be known:
+Let not a word spoken compel nature to groan.
+
+If words of wisdom you believe you can afford,
+Then lend me your ear: Your tongue is a sword.
+
+If your lips are sealed, then read from this scroll:
+What comes out of your mouth reveals your soul.

src/posts/poetry/ill-with-want.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2013-04-10 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Christianity
+  - Realtalk
+title: Ill With Want
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+I could travel across the land
+Searching far and wide,
+But the grass will still seem greener
+On the other side.
+
+I could be surrounded by people who love me
+Yet still feel I don't belong.
+I could think I'm a terrible person
+Despite how often told I'm wrong.
+
+I could accomplish several amazing feats
+Yet still believe I'm inadequate.
+I could try my best to be nice
+Yet still remain the Devil's Advocate.
+
+I could conquer all of Earth
+Yet still wish for Jupiter and Mars.
+I could conquer the milky way
+Yet still wish upon other stars.
+
+Cause there's an endless wave of want in the air
+So what I want I can never obtain.
+Every attempt leaves a feeling of despair
+As I'm reminded of my ball and chain.
+
+They say that Jesus is the answer
+And I know that I am God's child.
+Why, then, during my best days
+Can I sometimes find no reason to smile?
+
+This is the impossible riddle of Life
+That happens to plague all of our minds.
+There is no answer that will suffice
+Until we're in heaven, body and mind refined.

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2016-03-25 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Clever
+  - Wisdom
+title: In Retrospect
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Countless information's unaccounted for
+The second the moment has passed.
+
+The details you do retain are blurred
+And the retention itself won't last.
+
+The data chosen to be collected
+Is picked by your values and beliefs.
+
+Who's to know
+If the changed past guarantees
+The desired outcome's
+Probability to increase?
+
+(And what of
+The endless repercussions it's released?)
+
+In essence,
+To put it bluntly,
+Hindsight
+Is not 20/20.

src/posts/poetry/inept.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2018-07-08 16:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Advice
+title: Inept
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+You can call it unfair.
+Is that your final decision?
+
+Inaction is still an act
+Oft' deserving derision.
+
+You can say it's no use.
+Is that all you can teach?
+
+The complacent are useful
+To their ongoing siege.

src/posts/poetry/inner-peace.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2018-10-29 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Introspective
+title: Inner Peace
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+What's the point of looking forward
+If the future crumbles upon arrival?
+There's no such thing as heartache;
+The mind creates it for survival.
+
+Once you dash your expectations,
+You'll be untethered from the lie
+That your inner peace depends upon
+The fleeting forces from outside.

src/posts/poetry/inside-insight.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-02-23 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Introspective
+  - Wisdom
+  - Worry
+title: Inside Insight
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+I pine not
+For grass or trees.
+This pane of glass
+Looks fine to me.
+
+Ever present
+Is every present
+Presented as the moments pass.
+
+Where last is first
+And first to class.
+First to thirst
+For half-full glass.
+
+Fully free
+To see worry
+As irrational
+Impossibility.
+
+For the soul you hold
+Can be sold for gold;
+You otherwise can't lose control.
+
+Might lose a limb.
+Might lose a friend.
+Might loss matter
+When your matters end?

src/posts/poetry/judge-judy.md

@@ -6,6 +6,7 @@ tags:
   - Neuroscience
   - Wisdom
 title: Judge Judy
+layout: poetry
 ---
 
 With each passing moment,

src/posts/poetry/jungle-ghosts.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2021-10-19 15:30:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - realtalk
+  - advice
+  - relationships
+title: Jungle Ghosts
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+You claimed to keep us
+In your heart.
+Are you surprised
+To find it scarred?
+What better way
+To leave our mark?
+
+For our hearts were shattered,
+You natural disaster,
+In your endless search
+For the greenest pasture.
+
+Learn to tend the fields
+Already in your care.
+It takes some time to yield
+The produce growing there.
+
+The city will sustain you
+Wherever you may roam,
+
+But what wonders
+Will you build
+Without a place
+To call your home?

src/posts/poetry/kings-pin.md

@@ -6,6 +6,7 @@ tags:
   - Chess
   - Lessons
 title: King's Pin
+layout: poetry
 ---
 
 You placed my king

src/posts/poetry/klepto-couches.md

@@ -5,6 +5,7 @@ date: 2014-10-27 00:00:00 +0000
 tags:
   - Humor
 title: Klepto Couches
+layout: poetry
 ---
 
 My home houses countless couches.

src/posts/poetry/lawncare.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2018-09-20 16:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Neighbors
+  - Shame
+title: Lawncare
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+The neighbors watched
+Our grass grow
+As they gossiped about
+Us riffraff.
+
+We tried our best
+To lay low,
+But still felt the scorn
+In each laugh.
+
+Even our own
+Brought a sense of shame
+With no one to blame
+On our behalf.
+
+Parsimony
+Parts the lonely
+Until one has
+The last half.

src/posts/poetry/leafblower.md

@@ -6,6 +6,7 @@ tags:
   - Grounds
   - Covenant
 title: Leafblower
+layout: poetry
 ---
 
 You're the girl sitting on the park bench.

src/posts/poetry/looking-good.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2017-07-10 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Wisdom
+  - Short
+title: Looking Good
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+When things
+Are looking good,
+You tend
+To your mirror.
+
+But the clarity
+You seek,
+You'll find
+To be inferior.

src/posts/poetry/loose-change.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-10-16 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Life
+  - Advice
+title: Loose Change
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+You've gotta stay loose
+
+Like change
+
+Before you're torn
+When the goods exchange
+
+For the better
+
+For the worse.
+
+To be used
+To the best
+Is a curse.
+
+This might not make sense
+Or cents
+Or millions,
+
+But hindsight's a pretense
+At the expense
+Of resilience.
+
+Take the tumble
+
+For the worst
+Is much better
+Than whatever
+Your temptors
+Purport.
+
+I can change
+Thanks to change.
+
+Otherwise,
+Remain
+
+And sell short.

src/posts/poetry/lost-connection.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-11-02 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Wisdom
+title: Lost Connection
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+We live
+Well enough alone,
+So we left ourselves
+Alone.
+
+Our words
+Might suggest otherwise,
+But our actions
+Are what's shown.
+
+We share
+Electromagnetic waves
+
+But it might take
+A million years
+
+For massless particles
+At the speed-of-light
+To connect us to our peers.
+
+We curse
+Our WiFi connection
+The moment
+We lose reception,
+
+But it takes some time,
+And a few Doing Fine's
+Before loneliness
+Gets your attention.
+
+We cognitively
+Know this well,
+Yet our bodies
+Still cannot tell.
+
+The modern man
+In a tribeless land;
+Evolution
+Is confused as hell.

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-06-22 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Advice
+title: Make Your Move
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Men are meant to move
+Lest we wither and waste away
+As we wade out in the ocean
+In need of a crescent wave.
+
+If you refuse to be moved,
+You will sink like a stone.
+But if you catch a wave,
+You'll see you're not alone.
+
+For we are all mostly water,
+Each cell gasping for fresh air.
+So why not splash into a wave?
+We are waiting for you there.

src/posts/poetry/makeup.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-06-20 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Love
+title: Makeup
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+I'm not too good with faces,
+But I've faced you for so long.
+I know when your hair changes
+And how much makeup you've put on.
+
+When we're under too much pressure,
+We protect each other from harm.
+For our bond will never sever
+As we weather each other's storm.

src/posts/poetry/mental.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-07-13 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Religion
+title: Mental
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Mistakes are meant to be made
+And mended.
+
+Miracles mistake the mundane
+For transcendence.
+
+Brains were built to buffer
+The sadness
+
+Until it makes up miracles
+From madness.

src/posts/poetry/molecules-and-men.md

@@ -5,6 +5,7 @@ date: 2019-10-26 12:00:00 +0000
 tags:
   - Wisdom
 title: Of Molecules And Men
+layout: poetry
 ---
 
 May we lose

src/posts/poetry/monday-morning-shift.md

@@ -6,6 +6,7 @@ tags:
   - Grounds
   - Covenant
 title: Monday Morning Shift
+layout: poetry
 ---
 
 These plants look beautiful, but not at this location.

src/posts/poetry/morning-commute.md

@@ -7,6 +7,7 @@ tags:
   - Worry
   - Self-conscious
 title: Morning Commute
+layout: poetry
 ---
 
 A few minutes into my morning commute

src/posts/poetry/mother-mary.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-06-16 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Christianity
+title: Mother Mary (John 2:5)
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+O, mother Mary,
+Is your heart full of regret?
+
+You let him know
+The wine's run out,
+But his time's not come just yet.
+
+Or, mother Mary,
+Is your heart now full of joy?
+
+"He let me know
+What will be done,
+So servants, obey my boy."

src/posts/poetry/nervous-city.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-04-21 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Self-conscious
+title: Nervous City
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+You peered into my presence
+Without my permission.
+I happened to take notice,
+Which gives form to superstition.
+
+Now my thoughts follow laws
+That only I can enforce;
+If you continue to trespass,
+I'll steer you back on course.

src/posts/poetry/new-student.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2012-03-15 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - School
+  - Realtalk
+title: New Student
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Please present yourself to the class
+By sharing none of your secret past
+
+Tell us your residence, your aspirations,
+Your chosen major's concentration,
+And maybe some more background knowledge
+As to why you're attending this specific college.
+
+But anything more is unnecessary
+I mean, who cares your birthday's in February?
+
+We learn not by the things you say
+But by the image you portray
+From the way you walk, talk, and stare
+And the ridiculous length of your untamed hair
+
+Learning any more is unnecessary
+Learning any more is a little too scary

src/posts/poetry/new-year-s-retribution.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2014-01-10 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Advice
+title: New Year's Retribution
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Our past predicts how prone we are
+To repeat our mistakes in the present.
+New Year resolutions are made
+To prove ourselves convalescent.
+
+Never again shall we regress
+Back to our frail and Fallen state.
+Instead, transform into super humans
+Gaining skills and losing weight.
+
+Only then will we be pleased
+With who we see in the mirror.
+On the contrary, oft' we find
+What harms us, we hold dearer.
+
+And so the cycle repeats itself
+As our resolutions are broken.
+Still, I vow to write more next year
+Despite what has just been spoken!

src/posts/poetry/nonsilent-violence.md

@@ -0,0 +1,29 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-08-10 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Introspective
+title: Nonsilent Violence
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+When you speak,
+Our ears must listen,
+Whether or not
+Our mind attends.
+
+Your vocal cords
+Disturb the air
+Which strike more drums
+Than you might intend.
+
+So I walked away
+In search of Quiet,
+But my mind was troubled
+By the sounds it made.
+
+I echoed them
+Into the air
+And saw each branch
+Throwing their shade.

src/posts/poetry/note-to-self.md

@@ -0,0 +1,22 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2014-01-20 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Advice
+title: Note To Self
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Take a few bets
+That can't be won.
+
+Accomplish a task
+That can't be done.
+
+Face the fears
+That can't be outrun.
+
+Be a guiding light
+When we've lost sight
+Of the sun.

src/posts/poetry/nothing-to-lose.md

@@ -0,0 +1,22 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2015-06-28 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Relationships
+  - Faith
+  - Christianity
+  - Friendship
+title: Nothing To Lose
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+You can't be let go
+Once you've clung to the truth.
+With your treasures in heaven,
+You've got nothing to lose.
+
+Now free to live out your life
+With nothing to prove
+Save for the love in your heart
+You long to share with your crew.

src/posts/poetry/one-of-six.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-07-12 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Introspective
+title: One of Six (or Sick of Six)
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Every now and then, I detach
+From the talking and the laughing.
+
+My skull splits in two
+So that my right hemisphere
+Can peer into the left:
+
+It finds my younger self, sobbing,
+For he cannot speak up
+And air his grievances
+Lest he inconveniences
+A heavily burdened family.
+
+The grief drips down his bronchial tubes
+And festers.
+
+We thought we would grow out of it.
+
+But the grief grew
+As we watched its roots wrap around our ribs.

src/posts/poetry/original-intent.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2017-08-20 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Fiction
+  - Story
+  - Mystery
+title: Original Intent
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+The author read
+The words she wrote
+And swore each word
+Together spoke
+
+A different message
+Than initially penned
+In a tone reminiscent
+Of a familiar friend.

src/posts/poetry/out-of-sync.md

@@ -0,0 +1,20 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2016-07-20 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Relationships
+  - Music
+title: Out Of Sync
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+I heard the song
+Held within your heart
+And gave my best
+To play its leading part.
+
+But I could neither
+Determine the key,
+Nor predict
+Its syncopated beat.

src/posts/poetry/pda.md

@@ -0,0 +1,19 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-07-05 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Introspective
+title: PDA
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+If you don't mind, please keep your love away.
+For my heart breaks from this public display.
+You see, mine believes its love is lacking
+So yours reminds mine of its walls cracking.
+
+But if you do mind, that is just as well;
+An out-of-reach heaven prepares you for hell
+Where you're better off carving your disdain
+Until there's only joy for another soul's gain.

src/posts/poetry/perfect-situation.md

@@ -8,6 +8,7 @@ tags:
   - Drinking
   - Humor
 title: Perfect Situation
+layout: poetry
 ---
 
 When I'm hammered,

src/posts/poetry/personify.md

@@ -0,0 +1,23 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-08-06 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Religion
+title: Personify
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+There was no Word.
+Only chaos
+That echoed into patterns.
+
+It is the same now
+As it was back then,
+Except we patterns
+Can now think we matter.
+
+For quantum tried its best
+To coalesce chaos into complexity
+And it is still hard at work
+To personify even the galaxies.

src/posts/poetry/perspective.md

@@ -0,0 +1,15 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2017-09-20 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Wisdom
+  - Short
+title: Perspective
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+I saw a side of myself
+That I never expected
+By taking a look
+From another’s perspective.

src/posts/poetry/pixel-pusher.md

@@ -0,0 +1,26 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-02-21 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Relationships
+  - Love
+title: Pixel Pusher
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+She paints in pixels.
+
+Permanent.
+
+They can be changed,
+Or erased,
+
+But won't.
+
+That's not the point
+Of presenting points.
+
+You present the full picture.
+
+Or don't.

src/posts/poetry/placate.md

@@ -0,0 +1,14 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2017-09-10 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Mediator
+title: Placate
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+It's not my place
+To placate.
+To somewhere safe,
+I vacate.

src/posts/poetry/pointed-question.md

@@ -0,0 +1,32 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-03-09 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Christian
+title: Pointed Question
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+You declared,
+Again,
+
+"It's either
+Us
+Or
+Them."
+
+But lines
+Blur
+And
+Bend
+
+When it's
+Us
+For
+Them
+
+I Already
+Forgot
+
+The question.

src/posts/poetry/post-civil-chattanooga.md

@@ -0,0 +1,37 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2016-05-25 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Racism
+  - History
+  - Chattanooga
+title: Post Civil War Chattanooga
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+This post-civil-war-torn-town
+Gave refuge
+To the shackled and bound.
+
+This town's river bubbled
+With hope from beneath
+To attract the outcast
+And mask the town's deceit.
+
+Traffic soon birthed
+To industrial sound.
+
+Its booming business
+Broke the backs
+Of the beaten down.
+
+Jim Crow rose
+To further ostracize
+And whiteout the spots
+Missed by redlines.
+
+This town's river bubbled
+With sewage from beneath.
+Today's gentrified waters
+Taste just as bittersweet.

src/posts/poetry/pure.md

@@ -0,0 +1,15 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2018-01-11 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Short
+  - Christianity
+title: Pure
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Give him your chaos,
+He'll give it a form.
+Take all that you will,
+He'll create even more.

src/posts/poetry/quarter-life-crisis.md

@@ -0,0 +1,25 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2016-04-25 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Vices
+  - City
+title: Quarter-Life Crisis
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+There's nothing better
+Than a quarter-life crisis.
+
+At the peak of your prime,
+Catching up on lost time,
+Fighting off vicious vices
+
+By keeping yourself busy
+And taking in all of the city
+Without a care
+For what its price is.
+
+So long as you're no longer
+Left to your own devices.

src/posts/poetry/quenchless.md

@@ -0,0 +1,36 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2021-09-02 09:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Vices
+title: Quenchless
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+The only
+Drink that quenches
+Dulls the senses
+Until
+All discretion
+Is lost.
+
+What
+Enabled this dependence?
+My college attendance?
+Is that their
+Accreditation's cost?
+
+Is it
+The fault of my genes?
+A man who
+Couldn't stay clean
+Then passed down
+The ~~bottles~~ battles he lost?
+
+Or was it
+My lack of socializing
+That kept me subsidizing
+Charisma
+With each drink
+I came across?

src/posts/poetry/recollect.md

@@ -0,0 +1,54 @@
+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-09-24 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Life
+title: Recollect
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+The television blared at a volume
+That I could hardly handle,
+But you were sound asleep
+As if such sounds could hold no candle
+To whatever sublime sounds
+Your subconscious wished to hear;
+So I watched the rest, and watched you rest,
+As I sipped another beer.
+
+There goes another little memory
+That neither of us can share.
+If I add mine up,
+And add yours up,
+Will it be enough to care?
+
+My smartphone delivered multimedia
+Directly into my eyes and ears
+Until the audiovisual stimuli
+Had me breaking out in tears;
+So I wished to share this moment
+But could only share with you a link
+And received a couple of emoticons
+To reveal what you felt and think.
+
+There goes another little memory
+That neither of us can share.
+If I add mine up,
+And add yours up,
+Will it be enough to care?
+
+You spoke to me at length on a subject
+That you enjoy with such a passion,
+But I zoned out a few sentences in
+And responded with the most minimal interaction
+Until I found a moment to break free
+And sought out someone who'd share the stage;
+We talked at length about cybersecurity
+But I didn't realize you were disengaged.
+
+There goes another little memory
+That neither of us can share.
+If I add mine up,
+And add yours up,
+Will it be enough to care?

src/posts/poetry/rose.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2018-02-13 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Death
+  - Lovers
+title: Rose
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+I thought my heart was broken,
+Or its voice far too soft-spoken
+Until I walked past by a grave.
+
+It was normally unkempt and bare,
+But today a rose sings it a prayer:
+A somber song their lover gave.

src/posts/poetry/search-party.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2020-06-21 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Realtalk
+title: Search Party
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+You left to interrogate brain cells
+On the whereabouts of Miss Happiness
+And took the shot
+The moment they muttered,
+"I'm sorry, I haven't the foggiest."
+
+It gave you quite the rush to see
+Each cell meet its own maker
+Which quickly borne a killing spree
+With the question as its chaser.
+
+You never did find Miss Happiness,
+But you forgot why you even cared
+And mistook her for your carelessness
+Whilst so cognitively impaired.
+
+All revelries meet their end, however,
+Which took with it your revelation
+Eliminating all of your leads
+In the Miss Happiness investigation.

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2016-06-20 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Selection Bias
+  - Secularization
+  - Religion
+title: Secularization Theory
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+The infinite
+Is out of range
+Of the finite.
+
+The ethereal
+Is overshadowed
+By the limelight.
+
+It's expanding
+Just beyond
+Our peripheral vision.
+
+Selection bias
+Negates
+The tool's precision.

src/posts/poetry/signal-lost.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2017-07-20 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Falling Out
+  - Relationships
+title: Signal Lost
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+There's no reason for us to talk
+As we discuss meteorological matters.
+Our communal cup never fills up
+For each time we lose touch, it shatters.
+
+You see in me a man from before.
+I see in you but a shallow shore
+With a receding tide
+Of our friendship folklore.
+
+Is there nothing more?
+
+I've tired of this one-sided conversation
+So I'll retire and keep myself complacent
+With an assuming posture
+And twiddling of thumbs
+With the occasional interjection
+Of terribly clever puns.

src/posts/poetry/silent-silas.md

@@ -6,6 +6,7 @@ tags:
   - Introspective
   - Silence
 title: Silent Silas
+layout: poetry
 ---
 
 The windows to my soul

src/posts/poetry/silent-sound.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2011-04-11 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - alliteration
+  - silence
+title: Silent Sound
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Safely set inside this song
+Are silent sounds we passed along.
+Secret though we seek to know
+Signs of its new secret show.
+
+Silence hides up in the skies
+Far from folks, cars, and lies.
+It only lives to watch us die,
+For that is when our souls arrive
+And silent sounds are synthesized.

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2014-11-29 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Realtalk
+title: Sips of Serum
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Honesty is the best policy
+If you're considered prodigy.
+But I'm left a prodigal son
+With money and meals my idolatry.
+
+Spinning webs of lies
+To hide the mess inside.
+Donning the mask of Jekyll
+As I sip the serum of Hyde.

src/posts/poetry/sleep-paralysis.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-02-06 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Dreams
+  - Late-Night
+title: Sleep Paralysis
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+The brain
+Signaled
+SHUTDOWN.
+The mind
+Couldn't
+KEEP QUIET.
+The eyes
+Were left
+ALL ALONE.
+The body
+Can't run;
+CAN'T FIGHT IT.
+
+Thoughts are now
+RACING
+Wheels are now
+SPINNING
+Fears turn to terror
+And ask, "Who's winning?"

src/posts/poetry/spaghetti.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2016-03-15 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Christianity
+  - Conviction
+  - Prayer
+  - Humor
+title: Spaghetti
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+A woman bowed down
+Before her plate of spaghetti
+To send God a prayer
+He's heard a thousand times already.
+
+But Jesus was in such
+A mischievous mood
+That He let the woman hear
+What the Father thought of her food.
+
+"There she goes again
+With her cookie-cutter request
+Full of empty words meant
+To ensure her noodles are blessed."
+
+But the woman quickly answered,
+"There's no need to be so rude!
+I will gladly recant the prayer
+If I offended with my gratitude."
+
+God then replied,
+Caught by surprise,
+"Sorry, it seems
+My Son played a prank!
+
+When words lose their meaning,
+Good intentions are deceiving,
+So now it's uncertain
+Who's receiving your thanks.
+
+People only speak to me
+Before they eat and sleep.
+Has it become impolite
+To think on your feet?"

src/posts/poetry/spellchecker.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2016-07-10 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - School
+  - Late-Night
+  - Homework
+title: Spellchecker
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+No one should be awake
+At this time of night.
+Nothing good can come
+From what I'll try to write.
+
+My vision's a bit blurred
+As I try to type
+So I'm not quite sure
+If the keys I press are right,
+But I've come this far
+So I'll press on in spite.
+
+Thank you, Spellchecker.
+The overseer of my oversight.

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2021-07-30 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Advice
+title: Take A Breather
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Disasters cannot happen
+If anything is fine.
+
+Lines cannot be crossed
+If you don't draw a line.
+
+Wishes do come true
+If any change will do.
+
+Pain loses its bite
+If you enjoy the fight.
+
+This makes sense at the surface,
+But we shouldn't dull our senses.
+Our suffering serves a purpose
+So let's drop these false pretenses.
+
+Sit with that sinking feeling
+Until you reach its depths
+To listen to its teachings;
+Resurface to catch your breath.
+
+Then look out to the horizon
+To appreciate the view
+Of all the potential futures;
+You've a say in which comes true.

src/posts/poetry/take-time.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2018-12-22 16:27:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Time
+  - Cars
+  - Advice
+  - Anger
+title: Take Time
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+The perma-pedestrian
+Watched in awe
+Of the passing cars.
+
+Each driver longs
+To extend their life
+With Audis & Jaguars.
+
+Each piston obeys
+Thermodynamic law
+Exploding every decisecond.
+
+The law of inertia
+Transfers heat to our heads
+Upon braking at the intersection.
+
+The human VROOMS.
+Huffs and FUMES.
+Shortcircuits- KaBOOMS!
+
+The cycle repeats
+Until there remains
+No more lives to lose.

src/posts/poetry/thought-experiment.md

@@ -7,6 +7,7 @@ tags:
   - Relationships
   - Realtalk
 title: Thought Experiment
+layout: poetry
 ---
 
 Love is a free fall

src/posts/poetry/unintentional-internalization.md

@@ -7,6 +7,7 @@ tags:
   - Speech
   - Verbal Abuse
 title: Unintentional Internalization
+layout: poetry
 ---
 
 Our skin's as thick

src/posts/poetry/unsettling-beliefs.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2019-07-24 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Religion
+title: Unsettling Beliefs
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Once you believe that someone can right your wrongs,
+That leaves room for war and atomic bombs.
+
+Once you believe that your rewards lie in heaven,
+That leaves room for real-life to place second.
+
+Once you believe that it all happens for a reason,
+That leaves room to equate all change with treason.
+
+Once you believe that you're free to leave the faith,
+That leaves room for you to re-open the case.

src/posts/poetry/unsolicited.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2020-02-01 12:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Realtalk
+title: Unsolicited
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+you shoulda, woulda
+— or could ya shuddup?
+i didn't, but isn't
+that tangent fucked up?
+just listen & envision;
+decisions are tough.
+the rocks in my shoes
+are to you only dust.
+
+i did what i've done
+and i did it with love;
+if that doesn't do,
+don't tell me what does;
+for advice without end
+advises you to give up.
+but i've learned to let live
+to let you keep this up.

src/posts/poetry/verbal-blunder.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2012-11-05 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Humor
+  - Realtalk
+  - Silence
+title: Verbal Blunder
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+No!
+That was simply a slip of the tongue.
+Is it too late for me to play along?
+
+I fear I'm no longer as mysterious,
+As wise, and as fearless
+As I've implied myself to be.
+
+I've revealed my true colors.
+I'll soon be discovered;
+This shall show my sheer stupidity!
+
+'Tis time to hang up my hat and accept this mistake
+Since it seems I don't quite have what it takes
+To fool these fools how non-foolish I am.
+If only things had gone according to plan,
+
+For I have heard it said:
+He who knows, does not speak.
+He who speaks, does not know.
+I had taken this to heart
+And so my heart I would never show.

src/posts/poetry/wanderlust.md

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+---
+categories:
+  - Poetry
+date: 2015-09-25 00:00:00 +0000
+tags:
+  - Fate
+  - Christianity
+  - Realtalk
+title: Wanderlust
+layout: poetry
+---
+
+Do you still claim for there to be
+No chance of a random possibility
+Because our God planned out eternity?
+But what good does that do
+For the likes of me?
+
+If you don't know the hand you're dealt
+And faithfulness determines not your wealth,
+Then why not loosen up your bible belt?
+We can only ascertain
+Our ascent
+To heaven or hell.
+
+The rain falls down on the wicked and the just.
+We pack our bags and pray to God in whom we trust.
+Our plans fall through as we return to dust
+And beg our God
+To cure
+Our wanderlust.

src/posts/poetry/who-am-i-.md

@@ -5,6 +5,7 @@ date: 2013-05-10 00:00:00 +0000
 tags:
   - Realtalk
 title: Who Am I?
+layout: poetry
 ---
 
 Am I the clothes on my back